The Outcome of Bi-Polar

Pain is always
Inside my heart
Sometimes
It is there for
No reason at all
But other times
There are multiple
Reasons

It lingers always
Whenever I ignore it
And it always brings
Me even farther down
Than before
I feel broken
In shards so sharp
That cut my insides
Every time
I open up

But there is
No reason for it
To be that way
For my life
Is perfect in others' eyes
How can perfect
Be so painful?
And how could it have
Gotten this way?

It has always
Been this way
I am just now
Finally old enough
To distinguish it
And to realize
How it could
Effect me

But i want it gone
And nonexistent
And i want to feel
Normal
I want to have
SCAR-FREE
Skin
And a real smile
And be able to
Say that i
Am free and
Happy

But that is
Way too much
To ask
And no matter how
Much i wish
I will remain the same
Forever
Pain-inflicted

Revenge

My words may be weapons
But you deserve every blow
And I can assure you
The bruises won't show

I'll break you down
To pieces so small
I'll be on your back
Until you fall

I'll witness every failure
And ruin every wish
Just like you did
To this "stupid little bitch"

But everything has an outcome
And I'll introduce you to yours.
You'll be screaming in agony
Down on all fours

A kick in the back of the head
As i walk away
I'll kill you myself
If i continue to stay

So consider yourself lucky
As i walk out the door
You'll probably never get
What I had in store

The Sound Of A Text

Everyday at school
My mind is clustered and filled
With the hope that you messaged me
But everyday
When i get home from school
And i check my messages
I realize
You won't be messaging again
It's hard to accept
That you are busy
Since we live so far away
But you never message back
Untill my temper is at
It's highest peak.
I yell, and i scream
Sending hateful words at you
That i never imagined saying to someone
And i am left with the shame
As you walk away
For hurting you in such a way
I overreact
And let myself explode
For no reason at all
It's just i miss
The sound
When you text back
I miss the words
That comfort me when
I feel as if to die
And i miss the person whom i love
That i wanted in my life
But I am left
Without the sound
Of A text