To The One I Thought I loved

I bleed from the inside out
That causes immense pain.
I take a different route,
As mother-nature makes it rain.

You've manipulate me,
If you long for exact explanation.
But that is nothing new;
I've known since we dated.

I knew it would happen,
As i watched you shrivel over time.
But i kept on laughing
And claimed you were mine.

I watched our intimacy
Fade slowly as the clock ticked.
I knew you loved me,
And you knew I couldn't be fixed.

The feelings I've felt
Overpower my mind.
The shame's like a belt,
Coming right from behind

I know that I can never fix this,
And everything else will be a lie.
I miss the bliss,
That came from inside.

So departure is in play,
As I fuck up once again
I wish you would stay
But this is the end